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in the middle

I was talking with Joel the other night, like I am prone to do on a regular basis, and we were talking about what I wanted to do with my life career-wise. I haven't really thought about it in depth with my new situation before. I always thought I would go to undergrad school, then to grad school, then get a job. Now, the problem lies in what I want to go to grad school for, thus dictating the job that i get. If i go to grad school for creative writing, I will be a writer, but probably won't have a job. Jobs in the writers market are slim and very competitive. I am not competitive at all. I don't care that much about how other people write or how people interpret my writing. If they like it, great, if not, they suck anyway and it is just over their heads. Hehe. Then the other option that I have as of late is library school. I have been working in a library for over 3 years now. I seem to have fallen into that profession. I could go to school for that, which is relatively easy, especially compared to creative writing, and I basically have a job when i get out b/c of a shortage of librarians. I am pretty sure I have chosen the latter of those two professions. Easy enough, right? Wrong. Where am I going to go to grad school. I have been going to USM for my undergad degree and it is the only school in vicinity to where I am my boyfriend (probably by the time I get to grad school he will be my husband). Do i go to grad school in the same place i got my undergrad degree? I can, it just isn't really done that often or is looked upon well. But I am going to be a librarian, so i don't think it really matters. I would love to go to a renound school for creative writing on the east coast, but it just doesn't fit into my plan at all. I realized that writing is going to be my hobby. I don't do it much anymore other than posting on this thing. I haven't had any inspiration to speak of, i don't even think i'm that good, especially to go to school for it. I think my expectations were too high and people expected too much out of me. For now, I'm just mediocre me.