Ok, so a 17 year-old girl, a 30 year-old woman in the airforce, Karen Abernathy (local televison news anchor), a gay man, and a woman who looks like the mom from Family Ties walk into a bar and start singing show tunes....
ok, it's not really a bar, it is a living room, but they were singing show tunes, and that isn't a joke, and I was there. Never in my life would I have imagined being in that room. I don't think it was horrible, I mean, I could think of better things to do other than being in that prestinely clean, purely white living room. That made me the most uncomfortable. The purity of it all. White living room with white couches, piano in the corner, wedding pictures on top of the piano, porceline figures on the side tables, crystal looking chandelier above the glass table in the dining area with white chairs to match. As soon as we left and got in the car I had to say as much profanity as i knew just to get that feeling off. I know my baby wants me there, and I want to be there, but honestly, I have nothing in common with those people. The gay guy that was mentioned before, he is a really nice guy. He was trying to talk to me and include me in on everything, but I had no idea what he was talking about when he would ask me a question. "What about this show?" "Nope, don't know it." "What do you do in real life." "I'm a librarian." Nuff said. I now know that i was/am not cut out for any of that stuff, meaning shows and performing and the like. I will watch it to my hearts content though, and smile when Joel gets up to perform (because he is damn good.) and be glad that he is a part of my life and that i do get insight into that life. The other thing i noticed is that when i go to events or whatever that have all theater people there and Joel introduces me, they look at me funny right off, and/or wonder where the hell Joel met me since i have no performing background/ talent. "You look familiar....what shows have you done?" "Ummm, none." "Oh, well...oh. I could have sworn that I saw you somewhere before." "Nope."
I guess I am just used to being in the back. I don't like attention being draw to me at all. I am the girl in the back of the room with her nose in a book, not a dancer or a singer or an actress. I dunno. It's just all new and strange to me. Well, I better get to work....later....