With the passing of the new year comes second chances. The future is now and now you have no excuse to procrastinate doing the things that you should be doing. It is a chance to start over. I feel older with the start of 2004. 2003 taught me a lot about myself and other people.
I had two parties I could go to New Year's Eve. I stopped by the first before it really started, but was glad to have the intimate atmosphere to hang out with some of my closest friends and miss the ones who are not so close anymore. The next party was a huge blowout. I knew about 10 people there, and there had to have been over 100 easy. I met a bunch of people I would never had met before otherwise and am glad for it. Joel, Robbie and I pretty much huddled in a circle because we knew we were the only sane ones on the property, but we observed most of all. A little after the midnight hollering we were ready to get some coffee and wind down for the night. Perhaps sit and retrospect over 2003. How shitty it was but how, at the same time, this is the best time to be alive. It sucked for me on so many levels, but at the same time it taught me valuable lessons. On the other end of the spectrum it started what will be the best times of my life. It led me to Joel. As 2002 was ending and 2003 was begining I knew that I loved Joel and I would always love him and even if we weren't in a romantic relationship I knew I wanted to be there for him and be a part of his life.
Ok. On another note, I wanted to point this website and this article out. The website is Penny-Arcade and it is very cool. The writing is superb and funny. They know what they are talking about. More so than I would ever pretend to know. The article which Tycho is talking about is fucked up and biased. I just wanted to leave you with that to ponder. Later.