*giggle* *giggle*
Little girls just giggling away in the library. Oh to be 8 again and giggle freely in the world.
Haven't updated in a while, nothing really to write about. This is the first and only day I have had to work this week. Good for the free time, bad for the paycheck. I have quite a bit of school work I need to work on tonight and this weekend. Fun to be had, I am sure.
I went to be a witness for Shannon on her case against her former landlord. I was there from 9 a.m. until 12:30p.m. and they hadn't called her case yet. I had to leave to get something to eat and come here to work since i only work 4 hours this week. I needed those 4 hours.
Ah, almost 3:30. The children are pouring in the library. I think that is my cue to go and keep an eye on them so that they do not get too rowdy. Is that how you spell that? Anyway. Later....
*singing* Monday, fun day, it's a.....whatever.
Anyway. It's Monday. Class, break, class, then home with my baby. It must just disgust everyone that I talk about him so much. Well, you know what? Too damn bad. Hahaha.
Yesterday was our seven month mark which makes this the longest relationshp I have had. I never really kept them longer than this. They tended to annoy me after about six months, but not Joel.
We met up with his co-workers Zack and Suzette at the movies and saw Pirates of the Caribbean. Very good movie. It had everything a movie should have. Action, adventure, romance, good story, good effects, Johnny Depp.....okay, well Johnny Depp isn't required to have a good movie, but it does help...a lot. He wasn't even attractive in this movie, nor was Orlando Bloom. I know, I know *Orlando Bloom and Johnny Depp not attractive?!? Blasphemy! Blasphe-you! Blasphe-everybody-in-the-room!* But it is true. Although it doesn't hurt to look at them at all, they are dirty pirates in the movie and are damn good at it with the swashbuckling and everything, but they just aren't attractive. Now, put Orlando back as Legolas and Johnny as, oh, let's say Carl Jung from Blow and your back in business. Well, I better get and eat and skee-daddle to class. Later...
Day winding to close....annoyance fading, fading (patron approaches) rising, fading....ah, gone. Going to the movies with my baby (smilie face) and just hanging out and being groovy. Yeah, weekend!
I don't know what it is today, but i am so annoyed with work right now. Maybe it is because it is busier today than it has been on a Saturday for a while, maybe it is the fact that I am working with someone that i don't usually work with on a regular basis b/c she leaves after i get to work and she is a little high strung, talks fast and about everyone and everything. She's nice enough though. I just know I would rather be home. I have been annoyed a lot lately. I don't know what it is. I don't want to be fooled with or touched really or anything. Nothing really happened that would cause that, I don't think. My sugars have been wacky since they put me on this new insulin. It only seems to work once instead of thru 24 hours and my sugars have been a little high, and if they aren't high they are low, no medium. Joel and I are supposed to go to the movies tonight, and i think i want to go, but if i am like this i don't think i will be much fun. But i felt like this yesterday and he and I went out to Barnes and Noble and I felt fine once i got out of the house. Maybe that's all i need is some out of the house time having fun. I don't know what is with me and my aggrivated state. I think today it is just the environment I am in. Well, I'm out. Later.
Retracting former statement.
I have no tact really. I don't care what I say or what people think of me, so i tend to shoot off my mouth a lot. More so recently for some reason.
Saturday morning at the library. Whoo Hoo! I did not want to get up this morning at all, but I managed it. Not much going on, really. May go to the movies tonight, not sure though. I think i will find out this afternoon. Weekend so not much to write about. Update later if an intersting patron comes in, which one probably will, and i will probably want to share it with you. Laters.
School is frying my brain, and it has only been a week. It'll get better, I just need to get back in the swing of things.
My baby wrote the most beautiful things about me and himself. I could imagine it was hard for him to put all of that into words, but he did it eliquantly. I love him more than anything ever in this world and I am so glad that I am a part of his life. I smile at the thought of him and tremble with joy at his touch. I am loved and I love him tremendously.
There is a mother and a son at the front desk who want a library card so her son can check out a book for school. He needs it tomorrow. He has known about it for 2 weeks, but just now told his mom and it is our fault that they can't get one and they need the book by tomorrow. She didn't have anything with proof of address on it and was bitching at us because she "called us and asked what she needed and the woman on the phone told her all she needed was an ID didn't say nothing about any proof of address." She has the most painfull sounding country back-ass woods twang there ever was on a person, and her son sounds the same. I cringed several times at the way she pronounced simple word and the horrible grammer that was used and just the way the word "book" was pronounced. I don't think i could ever imitate it. Well, she finally found something with her address on it so her and her son are getting library cards. How much you want to bet that after this kid checks out that one book, they only check out videos with Van Damme and Stephen Segal and titles like U.S. Seals 2.
So far school is good. The classes don't look to be too hard. It is a lot of work though, tedious freshman and sophomore level work, not hard, but work none-the-less. I totally lost my train of thought, so I think i am going to go now. I have class tonight that i don't want to go to b/c i am not a big fan of the instructor, but I need this class and it was the only available one. That sucks. Well, later.
Today starts my classes. I exit from the summer and enter into the fall. And what a crazy ass summer it was. Let's have a recap, shall we?
In the begining there was my new, but not really so new, relationship with Joel. By the time the summer began he and I had been dating for four months or so. He graduated in the begining of May and moved back over here permanently, which was a good thing, that way he isn't a hour away from me during the week and some weekends. We were serious, but in May we decided that this was/is the relationship to have and decided that we were going to spend the rest of our lives with each other b/c we were just those two incredibly goober-ish people who are helplessly in love with each other and notice no one else on the planet when we are next to one another. Shortly after this my dad gets really sick with an abcess in his intestine and had to go in for surgery. Oh let me spare you the fun that was. Not much fun passed during that time, like my grandfather passing away, me and some of my friends getting into it a bit, I moved out of the house I was sharing with four other people and moved back in with my parents. But good things happened too. I got to take an awesome trip up to Tennessee with Joel. We talked on the drive up and just spend a weekend together away from everyone and everything. He got an awesome job and is doing what he always wanted to do. I quit my horrible job at the college library and got a nicer, less stressful job at a small library. Less pay that caused me and will probably continue to cause me financial grief, but in the long run it is better. I signed up for school full time again to hurry and finish my degree, Joel and I had a relaxing summer, most things aside, of video games, comic books, movies, trips, and going to the beach, going out to eat, and just being with each other. We went to Ship Island yesterday and made it back with no sunburn. That is an amazing feat if there ever was one. Well, now it is time for fall and school and doctors and getting back to business...later.
This could shape up to be a pretty good weekend. I think Joel and I will go to the beach tomorrow (beach meaning Ship Island) and hang out and be groovy. Kristyn is in town and if i get to hang out with her for an extended period of time that will be cool. This is the last weekend for the summer for me. School starts on monday, and I am going to have a good time this weekend, dammit. This summer hasn't been too great for me. It has been okay, even slightly good, but not fun at all, really. I have been terribly bored and just want to be occupied for this weekend doing fun and crazy shit. Whoooo. Damn, a little over 2 hours left here at work. I think I can make it. I have to go to the bank and deposit my check and start paying off my overdraft protection fee. Bleh. i hate money. Later.
My kitty is home and happy. He was just constipated. Haha. I woke up this morning with a headache and low blood sugar. No good. I still am trying to shake the headache. I went and got willy this morning and everything was good. Expensive, but good.
"What? Is he like a cat? Will he chase it around?"
And I want to have children...sheesh.
I got a call from the insulin pump people. They said my insurance is going to cover 70% of it, we only have to pay $1,000 + for it, and we can set up interest free payment plans to pay the rest of it off. Do i still want to do it? Hell yes.
I finished Timequake by Vonnegut. I took a long break from reading any Vonnegut. I don't remember the last time I read one of his books. Like a book I haven't read before. I think it was when the Bagombo Snuff Box, a collection of his short stories, came out. I bought it and read it. I loved it all. I read it cover to cover like a book. This book reaffirmed him as my favorite writer, hands down. He is my idol. I have yet to read all of his books, but i have read a good chunk of them, over 10 i know for sure. Oh the satire. I want to take a satire course and have his books on the reading list. That would be great.
My baby is working on my design. It should be done soon, so this page will have a fresh new look. New and improved. Tastes great and is less filling.
I am poor. Do you have any idea how poor i am? Probably not, and that's good.
We have so much food in this house. We ordered food from the Schwann company and our freezer is full of goodies. I had the carmel buns this morning for breakfast and they were damn good, not to mention the fruit bars, ice cream bars, french toast sticks...the list goes on with the food we have. That makes me happy, and fat. I need to start exercising or something. Perhaps when school starts next week i will lose a bit of weight with me going to class and getting on a regular schedule of some sort. Well, I guess that's it. I'm out. Later...
I'm in a mood today. My kitty is sick, he's okay though. he was just alittle stopped up, but he will be fine. he is to stay overnight at the vet's office to make sure everything is okay. He worries me. I don't know what I will do when he finally passes away. I haven't had a pet die on me before. People, sure, animals? nope. It is a blah day. i don't feel like doing a damn thing. I just want to crawl into bed and read and snuggle with my boo-bear. I haven't taken a shower yet today, and boy do I feel filthy. If you know me and my obession compulsion, my bathing at least once daily, twice if i can get away with it, is very important to me, otherwise i feel utterly vile. Bleh. Just one more hour at work. Today wasn't too bad. Some interesting people came in, but nothing new there. I don't know what I am going to do tonight. I don't have to work tomorrow, and I only work a few hours on Friday, I am off this Saturday. I should do something. But I will probably do the same thing i do every day and every weekend, which is great, but it is so damn boring. Perhaps when I start going to classes again things, for me at least, will pick up a bit. I just don't feel like a productive member of society. I just want to go home and take a shower. Bleh.
Damn. Today was busy as fuck. I get to work at noon and there are two lines of people waiting to either check out or turn in books, there is one over-flowing cart of books and two full ones. It managed to slow enough for me to shelve all the books. It took me 2 and a half hours, but I did it. I also had a cart load of paperback books to finish processing and put out. By the time i got done with that it was almost 4. And here I am now, finally sitting down for a minute. Damn my back hurts. Bleh.
I noticed when I dropped one of the classes that I couldn't take b/c it would conflict with me working a decent amount of hours that my spanish 102 class is a 8 week class and doesn't start until October. That was going to suck b/c I would have had extra time that I could have been doing something else, so I went online to see if they had any first 8 weeks classes i could take to fill in that gap, and the only class that came up was spanish 101, which i took, but took it 4 years ago. So i decided that I should just go ahead and take it again, it has been a long time since I had spanish, and I probably need a refresher before going into the 102 class. So i got that fixed. I just need to go to the school and pick up my books and get another ID and parking decal and I will be all set. It probably wouldn't hurt to make sure my financial aid went through. I hate financial aid, but that is a whole other story that I don't think I have to tell. I didn't get to talk to my boo-bear until late this afternoon while I was doing the paperback books. I don't think he was having a good day at all. We will just chill at my house probably and hopefully he will feel better. Well, I'm out. Later....
Wow. I am bored. Nothing is going on here. It was pretty busy today for the first half of the day, but after lunch things slacked off again. Now people are just playing games on the computers and reading the newspapers. I just want to go home and lay around and read and be with my boo-bear. *sigh* Not too much longer, right? Just 3 and 1/2 more hours. Blah. I wish I would have brought my book to read, I could probably have gotten a lot read in it, of course I could go and find it out on the shelves somewhere, but i don't remember exactly where i am in the book and I am lazy and tired and don't want to fool with it at the moment.
Have I mentioned that I miss my boo-bear? 'cause i do.
I miss my boo-bear.
We went over to Brad and Shanna's last night and hung out and played Trivial Pursuit and Ooohed and Ahhhed over the copy of Tomes and Tailismans that we recieved yesterday. We shall watch that soon.
I am so tired. I woke up a little before 6:30 this morning, drank two cups of coffee and ate waffles and then decided I was going to lay back down for another hour since it was a little before 7 and I didn't have to be here at work until 9. I did not want to get up, but i did manage to drag my tired ass out of bed and get in the shower.
Joel got his Rez game in yesterday...nuff said.
My stomach is rumbly cause I am hungry. I just want it to be 5 so i can go home and call Joel and collapse in bed and just hang out all night and relax. i don't want to do anything at all. I slept really well last night though. I was out as soon as my head hit the pillow and his arms went around me. Well, I am going to go and drink my diet coke and stare blankly out into the stacks of books. later...
Ok, so a 17 year-old girl, a 30 year-old woman in the airforce, Karen Abernathy (local televison news anchor), a gay man, and a woman who looks like the mom from Family Ties walk into a bar and start singing show tunes....
ok, it's not really a bar, it is a living room, but they were singing show tunes, and that isn't a joke, and I was there. Never in my life would I have imagined being in that room. I don't think it was horrible, I mean, I could think of better things to do other than being in that prestinely clean, purely white living room. That made me the most uncomfortable. The purity of it all. White living room with white couches, piano in the corner, wedding pictures on top of the piano, porceline figures on the side tables, crystal looking chandelier above the glass table in the dining area with white chairs to match. As soon as we left and got in the car I had to say as much profanity as i knew just to get that feeling off. I know my baby wants me there, and I want to be there, but honestly, I have nothing in common with those people. The gay guy that was mentioned before, he is a really nice guy. He was trying to talk to me and include me in on everything, but I had no idea what he was talking about when he would ask me a question. "What about this show?" "Nope, don't know it." "What do you do in real life." "I'm a librarian." Nuff said. I now know that i was/am not cut out for any of that stuff, meaning shows and performing and the like. I will watch it to my hearts content though, and smile when Joel gets up to perform (because he is damn good.) and be glad that he is a part of my life and that i do get insight into that life. The other thing i noticed is that when i go to events or whatever that have all theater people there and Joel introduces me, they look at me funny right off, and/or wonder where the hell Joel met me since i have no performing background/ talent. "You look familiar....what shows have you done?" "Ummm, none." "Oh, well...oh. I could have sworn that I saw you somewhere before." "Nope."
I guess I am just used to being in the back. I don't like attention being draw to me at all. I am the girl in the back of the room with her nose in a book, not a dancer or a singer or an actress. I dunno. It's just all new and strange to me. Well, I better get to work....later....
Fall is coming up quite quickly. That means school. That means between the hours of 8 and 3 there are no children in the library. Hear that. Listen......exactly. Absolutely nothing. Nice. The first wave of after-schoolers came in, but it was few and they were good. I can't wait to get the 13 and 14 year old kids on my case b/c their math teacher is my mother. Yep, my mom teaches down the street from here at the middle school and those middle schoolers come here afterwards. I already had one of them comment that the last name on my name tag is the same as his math teacher. Fun will be had. I am sure of that. Not much going on. Trying to figure out what to do for dinner and seeing if we can get over to the poetry reading. Not to mention killing time before i have to go home in a hour. It has been a quiet day for the most part. Slow here at the library with summer officially over for the kiddies.
As fall approaches that means more things forme to do as well, like doctor appointments and school and work. That's plenty, thank you. I don't think school is going to be that big of a deal. I am only taking 12 hours, full load, yes, but no where in those 12 hours is an English class. All core classes at the freshman or sophomore level, which should be a piece of pie. Granted i did have last semester off, pretty much and didn't do a damn thing this summer, but i don't think it will take me too long to get into the swing of things. Well, I guess I'm out....laters...
Had my first doctor's appointment in three months this morning. It was a nice break from the prying eyes and questions from doctors and dietitians and consultants, but now it is back to the regular appointments every few weeks. I start my pre- insulin pump classes at the end of the month that will prepare me for getting the insulin pump. I am looking forward to that. I think that is going to help me out a lot with controling my blood sugar, which i don't have too tight of a hold on. I need to get everything straight in my body if i want to be healthy and have kids and stuff. The having kids is what worries me the most, but i think once everything gets under control and i get used to the pump it will be a piece of cake. I just need to check my sugar more often. I have been a bad girl about that. I am starting a new insulin regime. I have this new long acting insulin called Lantus. I only have to take it once a day, but it has to be at the same time everyday. I think I am going to take it after dinner or before i go to bed so i am sure to take it at the same time everyday. I do that for a week and then if my sugars haven't gone down in the mornings i adjust it 2 units every 2 days until my blood sugar is 120 or lower in the morning.
Not much else going on. My cats are being really cute this morning, but when i go and get the camera they split up like they were never being cute in the first place. I just want them to stay still for a minute while i get my camera ready. But now that my camera is beside me they are just going to sleep in non-cute, yet comfortable positions. Well, I am off to hunt for something for lunch before i have to go into work....school starts today, doesn't it? No children in the library, until after school when apparently we stop being a library and start being a child care service. Hopefully we won't get too many of those. Shelia is sending out notices to the schools and telling parents that no children under 7 can be left in the library alone. I would love to up that age to like 15, but, alas, I am just a lowly part time worker. Later...
Good morning all. I am taking a break from cleaning up at the moment. I have a lot of that to do. Man are we ever lazy. Ha. I have errands I have to run as well, like going to the grocery store and to the bank and a stop off at the post office. But enough of what I have to do later. Last night, Joel and I were going to go out, but since we couldn't really think of anything to do that we couldn't do right here at home we watched The Dark Side of Oz. You know, watching The Wizard of Oz with Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon playing. Only we did it the lazy way. James made a DVD that plays the movie and has the album playing with it. As an added bonus he lowers the volume of the album playing and turns up the volume of the movie in important parts so as to go along with the album more. Very cool. We didn't get to watch all of it, though, since it is a burned DVD and we were watching it on the PS2. It didn't want to read it a little after Dorothy got to Oz. So we occupied ourselves with X-Play and Ren and Stimpy. Well, I have to get back to doing stuff so I will have time to play video games and read on my lazy, but not too lazy day off. Later...
Pretty slow day at the library. Not too many people coming in today. I guess it is back to school shopping and everyone is taking their children to Walmart or the mall or something. Not too many things going on. As i think I stated earlier today, had a good weekend with much partying had. Kenny's going away party was very cool. I mainly hungout with Joel, Jon Bell, Jon Swink, Bonnie, Chet and Alice. The other main room was completely full of people, so we chilled in the living room and talked and laughed and sang Dust in the Wind and Turn around Bright Eyes Old School style, Jon Swink brought in his lap top and he and Joel talked about it and compared computer knowledge and parts while Jon Bell and I sat there looking at each other, shrugged at the numbers and letters Joel and Jon Swink were spouting out and started talking about sentence structure, because there we have them both beat. He being a screen writer and I being a writer in general. Note to self: remember to invite Jon Bell to poetry readings. I think Jon Bell has a website, I will have to ask his majesty what it is. I know he posts on Genuis as does Joel and other people that are cool that we know...well, Joel knows them better than I do, and I have only really met two or three of the people who post on there. Anyway... I recommend checking the site out. Hell, I will post the link on the left as well. I don't have it there, and I should.
I have been playing video games like a mad woman. I should have a "currently playing" thing at the bottom of the page like the reading and listening things. I don't know what you would call them technically. Anyway, right now i am between Wario Inc. I think is the name of the game. It is for the GBA (or the Gameboy Advance for the people who don't play video games on a regular basis and don't know the abbreviations) and Amplitude for the PS2 or Play Station 2. Both games are much fun. The Wario game is quite addictive. It is a series of 5 second games that you have to survive through and they throw them at you faster and faster as the game progresses. Very cool. Amplitude is very addictive as well, especially certain songs. Fun to play, you have to have quick fingers and reflexes though, which my baby has b/c he is a bad ass at that game. I'm pretty good for a new "gamer" and I am getting better. More you play the better you get. Later...
meanwhile....
I found Jon Bell's website. Click here and it will bring you to it. I will also post a link to the left. Later...
Good weekend. Very good weekend. We laughed at people and how stupid they can be and how slack-jawed their boyfriends are. Ha.
"He looked like a mouth-breather."
My stomach hurts a bit. I felt full when i woke up this morning and then I had to eat breakfast. Bad for the tummy I think. It is all pissed off at me. But my hair looks good. I have to be at work in a little less than an hour. Oooo. I work more than 9 hours this week. I won't know what to do with myself. Well, I am off now to see if I need to do anything around here before I leave for work. Later.
Just chilling at work for another hour and I wanted to update real quick. Not much going on, really. Just playing video games and reading sci-fi novels. Oh, yeah, I'm a dork. I think i have tapped totally into my dorkdom and I am satisfied. Joel and I are going to go see All Night Strut at J.D. tonight and then afterwards there is supposed to be a huge party at Sean's which I am looking forward to. Not much else going on i don't think. I have Saturday off so it is lounging around the house for me. Well, I have to get back to work...probably more later this afternoon.