My Summer left today. I was fine all weekend until today when I would cry at the drop of a penny...or maybe just the sight of something that reminds me of her. I know, I know...she's not dead, it is just so hard to deal with someone who is so close leaving like that. Omega has walked around the house meowing all day looking for his Chancey. I need to talk to her, get my fix for the night. She did leave me rum and daquri mix, but I think tonight I will opt to take a loratab. Maybe then I can pass out in our new room worrying about all the things I have to do in this damn house before Wednesday, maybe even Tuesday if a certain person does not learn that he needs to grow up and be a man. All this dust is getting to me and my husband is at work. I feel so lonely right now. I cry when I throw away dog bones and I cry when I look at the kareoke (sp?) machine. I am a capricorn, I am horrible at change. If I could make everything perfect I would move her little ass right back into her room and lock the door, letting her only when we go shopping, watch silly shows and spend our usual time together. She wrote me the sweetest letter wheich made me cry until my eyes turned red and my eyes never turn red. My stairs were my crying place today when I came in as she pulled away because I could not bear to watch her car drive away a final time. I love you Summer, and I miss you already. You are without a doubt my best friend, my sister and someone I respect and love with my whole being. Call me soon, kay? Give Chancey Aunt Shannon kisses, will ya? Gotta go before I short circuit my keyboard with tears.
Posted by Shannon_50 at May 16, 2004 10:26 PM