World of Wings

Blabby

Everyone is gone and I am sitting here typing and waiting for my Clonipine to kick in so I can smoke a cigarette and go upstairs to curl up with the baby. This is the second night this week that we have had Maynard overnight and according to his dad he really gets excited when he tells him he is coming over. He is not a difficult baby, in fact sometimes it is like he is not even here. It is nice to wake up in the morning and see that little face smiling up to me!

In other news...I wanted to get home tonight and veg out in front of the television and paint, but that was not going to happen. It has been awhile since Kat has visited (not that she has not called. Poor thing probably thinks I am tired all the time. Most of the time she calls and we are fighting with Cliff or I am exhausted so she does not come over.) so tonight she made it clear we were going to have our time together no matter what. She made dinner for us (Krik and Chris showed up too) and we watched "Chicago". I forgot how nice it is to cuddle up with her and watch television or just bum out. I also got the new Kareoke Revolution (#3) last night and it has kick ass duet modes so before and after the movie we all made fools of ourselves singing. Atleast we were not doing Dance Revolution...that is MUCH worse now that we have the eye cam and can see ourselves on the television! About nine Travis dropped the baby off for another over night visit (we kept him Sunday night too) and we played with him for a few hours. Even though I did not get my "alone" time I still enjoyed myself. I am glad the house is quiet again and that this does not happen often.

Sunday night I was going to write a big entry about the "Cold Case" I saw earlier that night, but I could not type through my tears. This one was about a guy who got killed in 1983 and he just so happened to be homosexual. The year 1983 was also the real start of the AIDS virus and gay men and women were being killed and harrassed all over. People were afraid to come out of the closet because they were being called murderers. The show part did not upset me as much as the end. At the end one of the men who was in some of the 1983 flashbacks had grown older and worked in a petshop. He looked out the window and saw a gay couple with a baby in a slig looking at the puppies in the window. The men were very openly gay and one was white and the other Mexican. The man who saw them stopped for a minute and smiled and I knew what he had to be thinking (I know he is an actor, but I also know what a man in his position would be thinking in real life). I am sure he was thinking about how much we have changed and grown since 1983. It gave me hope that in twenty-five years when I generation is in charge that things will have changed even more. I think gay marriages will not be a issue in twenty-five years. A man and woman will be able to marry the partner of their choice, no matter what sex they are. If we have moved as far as we have since 1983, we can definately move further in 25 more years. I asked W. at work how she voted about the constitution being changed to not allow gay marriages and she said she voted for it to be changed. I asked her if she felt homosexuals were born that way or if they just "chose" to fall in love with the same sex. She said she felt they were born that way. So I asked her how fair it was to take away their right to get married when being homosexual was not their choice. She said she understood what I was saying, but she had been raised totally different since she is almost fifty. I understood what she was saying. Her generation WAS raised totally different than ours. I have hopes that our generation will raise children to be much more open-minded and in twenty-five years we can all respect other people's lifestyles....no matter what. I am grateful my mother raised me as she did. When I am with someone who is homosexual it is not even an issue for me. I could care less. I am not going to sleep or fall in love with this person so what in the hell gives me a right to judge them and their lifestyle? I need to step off this soapbox now because most people who read this journal are probably standing right next to me on the same box!

On a different side I have a few questions to throw out to everyone and I hope you all will reply. This is a little test I am conducting:

1. If you were born and raised in the early 1800's would you have had slaves and would you have agreed with slavery?

2. If you lived in Germany during WWII would you have turned a blind eye to the concentration camp?

3. If you were born and raised in the 1940's or 50's would you have believed in segregation?

Please answer these questions with much thought. Don't just blurt out no. I realise all these thing are horrible and no one would behave that way today, but really imagine that you ere born and raised in the times mentioned above. After you answer those questions answer them again, but this time ask yourself what you would do if you were time traveling from this date to that time. What would you do differently?

That is your homework assignments for the week my loves! :) Thanks for helping me with this little "test"! (In my opinion there is only one answer for all three questions, I wantr to see if anyone else feels the same way)

Posted by Shannon_50 at November 17, 2004 01:48 AM