June 22, 2005

I am trying to figure this out

I keep trying to figure out what I have done to her to make her this angry, but nothing is coming to me. In fact, I am now thinking I am just narcissistic and I have hurt her in some way. We used to be such good friends, but she is off in her own world now, that obviously if I enter is a dangerous path for me. I can’t ask a simple question without either being interrupted or mocked and when she walks into a room it is like I am not even there. I don’t know what is wrong with her. I don’t remember when this started. It is like every question I ask is a vicious attack on her, like I am trying to give her more work to do or mess up some plan she has in mind. How can someone become so angry so quickly? I am afraid to ask her anything for fear that she will roll her eyes at me or throw something. A few weeks ago we were sooooo busy and did not have much time to finish some closing stuff and she was ready to go. She kept trying to usher us out the door and when checking the bathrooms was mentioned she threw her stuff down in anger. We told her she could go, but it was not good enough. There have been countless nights we have waited for her and never thrown a fit…I don’t understand. Maybe I am just thinking all this anger is directed at me, I don’t know. But I am through. I am done walking on eggshells and I am done being smarted off too. I guess she thinks she is the only one with a million things to do, but she is not. Other sides need to be looked at. I am done coming to work upset because I know one of my best friends is angry with me. I AM DONE. There is a point that is reached and I am standing on it. I asked her about a video yesterday and she would not let me finish the sentence before she got smart with me. Then there are excuses of “why” she is being this way. There are no more excuses for me. No one deserves this kind of treatment. I will no longer stay downstairs and help in the morning if she can take one look at us and walk over to her area. I will no longer offer her help because if she has to help someone else she gets mad. When I am talked down to I will talk back. I am not a dog and will not be treated that way. It seems she is now playing the silent treatment when it comes to me. Play on.

Posted by Shannon_50 at June 22, 2005 03:48 PM
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